Unappreciated

I always thought that doing everything I do for my husband I would get more thank yous for it. I think sometimes he forgets how much I do and how much I have sacrificed. I let him take my car I wake up every morning with him to help him get ready for work. I make sure he has dinner every night and try and keep the house clean. I handle all of our finances cause money irritates him. I work so hard and some days he comes home and he doesn't even act like he cares. Sometime I do not even hear a thank you. I know he's had a rough day, but I'm a full time nanny and I have to deal with that all day on top of all the cleaning, so it's not like I'm asking for much.
AGGHHH Just needed to vent

Always in my heart
C.Smith

Alone Time

As a marine wife, you can never complain about not having enough alone time. Jess is training for his next deployment and all the field days and stuff are draining. I love him more than anything in this world I'm just lonely. People ask me all the time, well if you hate being alone then why choose to fall in love with a marine. Well I didn't choose anything, it chose me. You don't pick who you fall in love with, you just do, and the marine corp was a part of the package. Sometimes I wonder what our life would be like without the marines, but then I look around and I'm thankful for everything. The move was good for both of us, to live in a place where we can start over, make new friends and depend on each other. He knows me better than anybody and knows that I love my girl time, but he also knows at the end of the day all I want is to be snuggling next to him when I fall asleep. There are weeks, and months that we have spent apart and will spend apart in our future, but all those moments only make us stronger. Only remind me how lucky I am to have a man that would sacrifice so much to protect the country he loves. I think it's funny when I hear other wives say, man I don't have enough time with my friends, Come spend a day in my shoes, you'll change your mind! I got lucky and got one of those guys that isn't all about spending time with his friends. I am his number one, 2nd only to his job. We learn from day one that we don't always come first but we will accept any time we can get with them. Even from thousands of miles away Jess made me feel like I was the luckiest girl in the world. Constant letters, and little pictures he drew for me. Alone time like this past week and a half isn't something I love but something that makes me remember how much I love and need Jess. When I have a rough day he is one of the only people to make it better and I cherish every moment with him. For my single friends, or civilian friends, please know I'm not saying alone time is bad, I'm not saying it's not for me. I get enough space from my husband! I do not need any more alone time.

Always In My Heart
C.Smith

The Marriage

A marriage is something you constantly have to work at and honestly I never thought I'd be the married time. He truly is my soulmate though, in every sense of the word. He gets me, when I'm upset he knows not to push it, and when I'm happy it's usually because of him. Sure we fight, a lot, but the best part is after the fights when he's holding me happy. I know that doesn;t sound perfect but with jesse I don't need perfection just happy simple moments! With every other guy I needed some big show, to give me all these extra but with him it's just so easy it doesn't have to be overly complicated...

Our wedding was so beautiful, and his vows made me the happiest girl in the world. I guess with him it's just different and that's why I made him my husband. :)

Opening :)

We live in an overpriced 1 bedroom apartment in North Carolina. 543 miles away from all my family and everything I've ever known. We struggle daily but it the sunshine wouldn't be worth it without the rain. right? Jesse is this optimistic goofy southern gentleman. And I'm the loudmouth southern girl with a twist. I didn't grow up trusting guys so Jess struggles everyday to remind me he isn't going anywhere. Oh ya did I mention he's a marine. So it's early morning and late nights and lots of time apart. So this blog will hold all my secrets. Welcome to the world of the Smiths :)