Before Jess & I got married we were the couple that never fought and if there was ever a problem we sat and talked about it until it was settled. Now that we're married it seems like sometimes we just fight for the hell of it. I hate fighting and I always will. I feel like shit after every fight, it makes me feel like a failure as a wife that I can not keep things together for him. I do my best around the house and taking care of all his stuff but sometimes I get busy. I am a full time student, full time nanny to a 4 month old baby, and a full time housewife. Eventually you run out of time, the day ends, and there are things that are forgotten. I know I am expected to be this person who never hurts and is indestructible but even a marine wife has her moments of weakness. I see fights as the point where someone is at their weakest and yet they are still picked on and they fall even more. I love my husband more than life itself, but I DO NOT love the fighting! I feel like it is a breaking point for a relationship and after it's over you have to rebuild, like when battles happen and cities have to rebuild.
As bad as this might sound it sometimes help that my husband is a marine, cause there are times when our relationship gets tough and then he has to go away for a week or a few months. And then the time apart heals things.
always in my heart
c.smith
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